Vp Shunt malfunction: talking like a robot. 

Today was a new symptom. Today’s symptom was sounding like a robot.  I was having a conversation with someone and I was literally talking like a t.v. robot.  I was putting spaces in between each word. It was kind of amusing and it took every ounce of energy and concetration to carry a conversation which made my head hurt. It literally hurt to think. 

I’ve also been crying because not of loneliness but because,  I feel alienated…and scared because I have to go through these symptoms by myself. It’s scary to know I may have temperary blindness or possibly lapsing into a coma while I’m knapping. 

I step outside everyday so I don’t become claustrophobic. It’s hot here in Texas right now but I need fresh air and sunlight.

I’m going to try to draw or paint just to keep my mind busy. It’s going to be a long week. 


VP shunt malfunction: Things are happening.

I am not well. The headaches are getting more painful everyday. I’m exhausted mentally and physically. My thoughts are jumbled. I’m starting to speak slower and I have to concentrate just to speak and stay focused and that literally hurts my head. I feel tingly all the time.

I had to walk today and I lost my balance. I was in my crutches too. 

I saw one of my friends in mass today. She said hi and I couldn’t even remember her name. I had a hard time carrying a conversation with her because I paused mid sentence to think about what to say next. As I was trying to unlock my door I was like a drunk person and couldn’t find the keyhole.

I eat very little because I’m also starting to lose my appetite. I get small surges of energy and when that happens I do as much as I can before the next wave of exhaustion hits. I’m still sleeping every 2 to 3 hours. I sleep alot, it’s hard to stay awake in my condition right now. I’ve been sleeping on the sofa and keeping one of the locks on my door unlocked just in case I do happen to lapse into a coma before the 19th when I have a neurosurgeon in DFW, some one will be able to find me since I live alone. I can’t wait for this thing to be fixed or replaced.

Massive headaches

I was painting a demo for my friend whom I started to teach how to paint when I got this huge massive headache. I think my vp shunt has finally had it.  You see folks I have a verticular peretenal installing (VP shunt) to keep my hydrocephalus in control. What is hydrocephalus? It’s an over production of the cerebral liquid that surrounds the brain.

My mom has always informed me of what my happened if it were to clog or need replacing. She said I would have massive headaches and start to go blind. Well guess what folks? I think it’s happening. I started getting these massive headaches and I started wearing my glasses more often. My energy is gradually being drained. I may have to have it replaced or adjusted. It was a good run this VP shunt of mine and if something happens, I’m not scared. I think I’m ready to go.